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Monday, March 7, 2016
Miracles, Radical Love and ... the Main Event!
Personal Reflections
Chapter 19:
Have you ever wondered why God made himself manifest through miracles throughout the Old Testament days -- manna in the desert, the burning bush, speaking directly to the prophets, Jonah swallowed by a whale and surviving the ordeal? And Jesus during his time on Earth with us healing the sick, raising the dead, feeding the hungry by multiplying fishes and loaves, walking on water, calming the storm, turning water into wine?
Why don't we have miracles today to help us believe?
This chapter suggests that miracles are happening but we don't necessarily recognize them. I have thought that same thing for a long time now. It was easier back then, not so much because the miracles were so blatant, but because there was always someone around whom those miracles centered. And perhaps people were less cynical then? They certainly did not have as much scientific knowledge then.
We like to explain everything using our own knowledge and research. We've seen a lot of scams, con artists and deluded leaders, too. So it's good that we are not so naive as to fall for every con artist's line.
But miracles? They happen. People are healed with no good medical explanation. We make mistakes that could easily be fatal (like pulling in front of another vehicle on the road because we didn't see them coming, or because we misjudged their speed), yet somehow we remain unscathed. Our guardian angels on the job?
Whose prayer can you be the answer to today?
We've all heard that God uses us to answer prayers. We've all had our prayers answered by someone else, in unexpected ways. We can do this in very ordinary ways, actually. By paying attention to others, to their needs and their pain, by getting outside of ourselves for once and reaching out, maybe even simply by smiling or holding a door for someone.
Visiting the sick, homebound or imprisoned, feeding the hungry, offering someone a ride to an appointment, stopping to help someone whose car is broken down (or just calling for help), taking a colleague out for coffee or lunch or just lending a shoulder and listening. All are ways to answer prayers or create small miracles for others.
And if we pay attention, we will begin to see miracles everywhere, every day. What a great change to make in our attitudes!
"The one who believes in me will also do the works that I do, in fact, will do greater works than these." John 14:12
Chapter 20:
Radical love? What is that? My perception and understanding of love is constantly changing. When I was young, love meant parents who provided for my needs and encouraged me, friends who would spend time with me and for the most part, as a child love involves more receiving than giving. Children are needy.
Later, love meant something more romantic, and it was often painful. Unrequited love is one of the great dramas of adolescence and young adulthood. It's a burning awareness of someone else (who may not even know you exist) and yet it's still a self-centered kind of love.
But becoming a parent means a radical shift into being the provider rather than the providee, and even those who do not become parents often have pets, or they may enter a profession that is more of a care-giving nature than the other way around. Adulthood usually involves some kind of shift like this.
But even this isn't enough. As my children became adults and gradually (finally) moved out of the house for good, I became even more aware of the needs of others and of the opportunities for me to help some of them. Having low self-esteem can get in the way of helping others, because you don't feel worthy of doing for someone else. Sadly, it is in that sense a self-centered state of mind, too, even though it's a negative kind of selfishness.
There's a lot of Scripture that talks about love.
Last Sunday we heard about the prodigal son who was so self-centered, he demanded his inheritance early, ran off and squandered every penny of it, then came back home to beg for a lowly job so he could survive. But his father had a better sense of love and so he pulled out all the stops to celebrate his lost son's return home, much to the chagrin of his other son who had stayed home and done what was right.
That's a kind of radical love on the part of the father. Not all fathers would be so overjoyed to see a son come home begging after squandering money he didn't earn or deserve.
But John 15:13 suggests an even more radical idea: "No one has greater love than this, to lay down one's life for one's friends."
And that's what Jesus did when he died on the cross. As God, he didn't have to go endure that agony. But he did.
Read I Corinthians 13:4-8 for more specifics on radical, unconditional love.
What are you laying down your life for?
That's an interesting way to phrase a question. I probably would have thought about WHO I am laying down my life for. But we make decisions all the time about our priorities in life. Am I laying down my life for work -- a career -- so I can have more power, buy a bigger house to live in, make others jealous, perhaps elevate ourselves in hopes someone will admire us or look up to us?
Or are we laying down our lives by way of sharing what we have with others who have less? Are we giving of our time, support, resources to help raise up others instead of benefiting ourselves? Do we trust God enough to do that, secure in our belief that our heavenly Father will not allow us to fail, that he will provide other people who will provide somehow for our needs? Or do we not care, as long as we are making someone else's life easier?
Radical love can enable us to do radical things. Some people choose radical bad things to do, as have many famous dictators, kings and evil men throughout history. Others have chosen radical good, even in our own lifetimes. Think of people like Mother Teresa of Calcutta aka Blessed Teresa of Calcutta, who devoted her life to helping the poorest of the poor in Calcutta, India. Or throughout history, those who have given their lives to the Church -- the unsung heroes as well as the well known saints. And speaking of unsung heroes, they are among us everywhere, quietly spreading love and healing.
What are you laying down your life for?
Chapter 21:
The main event? The Resurrection, Jesus executed by the Romans, at the urging of the Jewish people in Jerusalem, yet three days later, an empty tomb. This chapter shares a story by a journalist who was an atheist three decades or more ago, whose wife became a Christian. This journalist used his reporting and investigative skills to try to discredit the resurrection and save his marriage, for he did not believe he could remain married to a Christian. But he was unable to discredit it; in fact, he came to the conclusion after examining all the available evidence (in Scripture and in the historic records) that it would take greater faith to maintain his atheism than it would take to accept the resurrection as truth and become a believer!
This former atheist was at the time he set this account into writing celebrating his 30th Easter as a Christian. It wasn't just his research that turned him. He saw changes in his wife, in her behavior and attitudes. The more he looked into it, the more he realized he couldn't continue to argue against the existence of God. He still cannot prove that God is real but he found enough evidence to change his own heart, which is not what he had set out to do.
God wants to resurrect you in some specific way. What area of your life needs resurrection right now?
I want to turn that around, to ask what area of my life DOESN'T need resurrection right now? But that's a cop-out.
However, I don't think I can figure it out on my own. This is something I will have to spend some time figuring out in prayer. Or just allowing it to unfold by handing over more of my days to God and see where it leads.
Susan
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Don't Wait
What would you do if Jesus appeared before you right now and said, "Follow me?" Would you jump up and run after him, like Matthew the tax collector? Or would you respond like this slacker, who said, "Master, I am ready to follow you. But first excuse me while I get things straightened out at home." (Luke 9:61)
Procrastination can be a difficult challenge for many people. A piece of practical advice I give my clients is one I often use myself. If you have a particularly onerous task to do, set a timer for 15 minutes, with the promise you can stop once the timer goes off. Then begin the task. More often than not, once the fifteen minutes is up, you won't have a problem finishing what you started.
But cleaning the closet isn't quite the same as responding to God's call to discipleship. For one thing, you will eventually get that closet done. But, once you start being a disciple, it's just the opposite. You'll never finish what you started.
What's your favorite way to procrastinate? Are you a thrill-seeker, waiting for the rush that comes from waiting until the last minute? Or do you just refuse to make a decision, thinking that absolves you from how events turn out? Maybe you are plagued by fears of failure and worries about what others might think of you. Maybe it's easier to let others think you simply lack the effort, rather than the ability.
Procrastination, simply put, is the act of delaying or postponing something. Jesus confronted it with compassion many times during his ministry. Whatever your procrastination style, I think Jesus has an answer for you:
If you're a thrill-seeker type, he would say, "As long as it is day, we must do the work of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work." (John 9:4) So ask God for a spirit of industry.
If you're afraid of failure, he would say, "Don't be afraid, little flock. It gives your Father great happiness to give you the kingdom." (Luke 12:32) So ask God for a spirit of faith.
If you're indecisive, he would say, "You can't put God's kingdom off till tomorrow. Seize the day." (Luke 9:62) So ask God for a spirit of courage.
Then, with faith, courage and industry, let us begin. Because God doesn't want us to put off doing good for others.
Pax et Bonum,
Rose
Procrastination can be a difficult challenge for many people. A piece of practical advice I give my clients is one I often use myself. If you have a particularly onerous task to do, set a timer for 15 minutes, with the promise you can stop once the timer goes off. Then begin the task. More often than not, once the fifteen minutes is up, you won't have a problem finishing what you started.
But cleaning the closet isn't quite the same as responding to God's call to discipleship. For one thing, you will eventually get that closet done. But, once you start being a disciple, it's just the opposite. You'll never finish what you started.
What's your favorite way to procrastinate? Are you a thrill-seeker, waiting for the rush that comes from waiting until the last minute? Or do you just refuse to make a decision, thinking that absolves you from how events turn out? Maybe you are plagued by fears of failure and worries about what others might think of you. Maybe it's easier to let others think you simply lack the effort, rather than the ability.
Procrastination, simply put, is the act of delaying or postponing something. Jesus confronted it with compassion many times during his ministry. Whatever your procrastination style, I think Jesus has an answer for you:
If you're a thrill-seeker type, he would say, "As long as it is day, we must do the work of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work." (John 9:4) So ask God for a spirit of industry.
If you're afraid of failure, he would say, "Don't be afraid, little flock. It gives your Father great happiness to give you the kingdom." (Luke 12:32) So ask God for a spirit of faith.
If you're indecisive, he would say, "You can't put God's kingdom off till tomorrow. Seize the day." (Luke 9:62) So ask God for a spirit of courage.
Then, with faith, courage and industry, let us begin. Because God doesn't want us to put off doing good for others.
Rose
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Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Love has Come for Us All

Years ago, I used to hang out at All Saints Convent in Catonsville, Maryland. The Convent had a beautiful scriptorium full of holy cards that were hand painted by the sisters. Each card had a picture and a saying. It may be a scripture, or something wise and uplifting said by a holy person.
One card in particular stood out to me. In it a little boy is kneeling on the ground. He seems to be gathering flowers into a little bouquet. From the message, you can read his intent: "Go; nothing is better for the soul than to make another soul less sad."
As a dysthymic, I am well acquainted with the problem of negative thinking. My mind can be a weed patch overgrown with negative thoughts, rather than a garden blooming with flowers of peace, love and joy. I also know, as an introvert, that the worst possible thing I can do for myself is to try to weed my own patch. To paraphrase Jesus' warning about not sweeping the house clean just so it can be possessed by seven more devils, I've learned that if I tear up one weedy thought hastily and without care, ten more are likely to grab its place.
Over the years, however, I have discovered two important tools to help free me from the tyranny of the mind bent on its own destruction. One is Adoration.
Adoration, or sitting quietly before the Blessed Sacrament, first and foremost offers me the opportunity to know I am not alone with my thoughts, no matter how painful they may be. Just as Jesus asked his disciples to watch with him during his hour of suffering, in Adoration, he is watching with me.
In addition, it allows me the chance to let negative thoughts simply come and go. I've used different visuals to help me in that process, one for each of the four seasons:
- In the winter, my thoughts are snowflakes that disappear in a roaring campfire
- In the spring, my thoughts are bits of pollen carried away by birds, bees and butterflies to far distant fields where they can't bother me.
- In the summer, they are ripe dandelions, sending their fluff up into the air and away, away.
- In the fall, they are dry, brown leaves falling to earth, becoming one with it as they decay.
Each of these images helps me to remember how impermanent are my thoughts. It gives me a moment to realize I can live without them. I don't have to worry, be angry, obsess, daydream, live in the future, live in the past.
Lastly, it teaches me that in the absences of my self-absorbed thoughts, I can open myself to God's thoughts for me.
Lastly, it teaches me that in the absences of my self-absorbed thoughts, I can open myself to God's thoughts for me.
When you preach that message, whether in deeds or in words, you help others let go of the worst negative thought any one of us can ever think: "No one cares for me."
Instead, they'll say, "Thanks for thinking of me."
Pax et Bonum,
Rose
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Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Self Doubt
I think of self-doubt being like the Chinese finger
trap. Although in my imagination, it’s
my feet caught in the trap, not my fingers.
In reality, it’s actually my mind caught in the trap of
action-paralyzing thoughts.
Can I trust myself?
Will I follow through? Am I for
real? Do I really mean it? Can I do it?
Questions like these can keep me from taking a single step
towards my goals, whatever they might be.
But look what happens when I simply change a question into a statement:
I can trust myself.
I will follow through.
I am for real.
I really mean it.
I can do it.
I suddenly feel more self-empowered. I believe in myself, even if only an
eensy-teensy bit. Say, who is that
Wonder Woman in the mirror, I find myself asking.
I wonder if believing in yourself is one of the lessons Jesus hoped his
disciples would learn when he told them the parable of the ten talents:
“It’s also like a man going off on an extended
trip. He called his servants together and delegated responsibilities. To one he
gave five thousand dollars, to another two thousand, to a third one thousand,
depending on their abilities. Then he left. Right off, the first servant went
to work and doubled his master’s investment. The second did the same. But the
man with the single thousand dug a hole and carefully buried his master’s
money.
“After a long absence, the master of those
three servants came back and settled up with them. The one given five thousand
dollars showed him how he had doubled his investment. His master commended him:
‘Good work! You did your job well. From now on be my partner.’
“The servant with the two thousand showed how
he also had doubled his master’s investment. His master commended him: ‘Good
work! You did your job well. From now on be my partner.’
“The
servant given one thousand said, ‘Master, I know you have high standards and
hate careless ways, that you demand the best and make no allowances for error.
I was afraid I might disappoint you, so I found a good hiding place and secured
your money. Here it is, safe and sound down to the last cent.’
“The
master was furious. ‘That’s a terrible way to live! It’s criminal to live
cautiously like that! If you knew I was after the best, why did you do less
than the least? The least you could have done would have been to invest the sum
with the bankers, where at least I would have gotten a little interest.
“‘Take the thousand and give it to the one who
risked the most. And get rid of this “play-it-safe” who won’t go out on a limb.
Throw him out into utter darkness.’
Fortunately, I don’t identify with the play-it-safe
guy. On the other hand, I don’t see myself
as a shrewd and talented investor in
the Game of Life. I guess I’m somewhere
in between. But I am reassured that
Jesus likes the person who takes a risk, who goes out on a limb, the one who is
scared he will fail, and maybe just as afraid he’ll succeed.
I guess it’s normal to be all over the map, right? One day you’re applying all your skill to
realizing the kingdom of God. Another
day you’re searching for the lucky slot machine that’ll make having to trust
God for your daily bread a thing of the past.
Another, you’re playing Words With Friends on your Boyfriend (my husband
John’s nickname for my phone) all day, wishing God would just get back from
that damn business trip. Then you’re
back to “thy kingdom come!”
Pax et Bonum,
Rose
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