Wildly Successful

A few weeks ago, I wrote that I am starting a new business.   I am a representative for Orenda International, a world class line of supplements and super foods.  I want to be wildly successful at it.    I'm not yet, I suppose, but it feels wild to me that I am succeeding at all.  What's even wilder to me is that I think I can be wildly successful.  I mean, I really think I can make it BIG in this business.

I am using the products, and finding a whole new lease on life--more energy, better sleep, balanced mood, weight loss, greater resilience in the face of stress, clearing up of several toxin-related problems in my body.  As I sell the products, I am also finding more financial success.  Granted, I'm still basically at the "Hey!  I can pay for my personal products!" stage.  But even that seems wild to me.  It seems wild I should be knocking on the Door of Life at this late stage, and it is easing open with hardly any resistance.

I haven't always felt I could be a wildly successful person.  I have always felt I've underachieved, that I'm oozing with raw talent in the area of energy medicine and other holistic modalities.  But my business has never seemed to take off in the way I pictured it would, given the amount of talent, training and experience I have.  There's a reason for that. A reason, frankly, that has nothing to do with fear of failure or fear of success.  It's because I've never oozed with good business sense, or a love of marketing, or a knack for networking.  I've oozed with dread, as a matter of fact, at the thought of engaging in any of those practices.  But, I had bills to pay and a business as a psychotherapist and energy medicine practitioner to run, so I've muddled along as best as I can for over 20 years, hoping to prosper on a shoe-string budget and limited knowledge.  So, when I started a new business at 57 years of age, I didn't think I'd be any better at running a new business.

But surprisingly, I am better at this than I thought.  Here I am, tap-tap-tappng, and the Door is swinging open.  How is that possible?  Maybe I've learned more over the years than I realized, and being able to apply it to a fresh business venture is helping me to see it.

Maybe I've learned, for instance, that growing a business means growing yourself as a human being.  It means confronting parts of yourself that are afraid to stretch and try new things. If "push the envelope" means expanding the definition, categorization, dimensions, or perimeters of something, maybe I've learned to expanded the definition of who I am to include more than I thought I could be.

Maybe I've learned starting a new business means being willing to throw your life into a certain amount of chaos.  Life is going to be topsy turvy, especially if you need to start it as I did--while still running another business, a household, a marriage, a life--and attempting to make all this happen in the occasional odd hours. If I'm not willing to tolerate chaos on the way to a new normal, then maybe I won't succeed.

Maybe I've learned succeeding in a new business means I need to stare down the core fear that has probably stopped me from being successful in more ways than one.  The Psalmist wrote, "Hear, O daughter, and consider, and incline your ear:  forget your people and your father's house, and the king will desire your beauty." (Ps. 45: 10-11)  So what if a talented but terribly insecure woman who happens to be my mother was jealous of me?  So what if winning at what I love to do means losing her love for me?

There are worse things.  Maybe that's what I've learned.

Pax et Bonum,
Rose